Alistair told himself he could not accept another repulse.
Advanced English Dictionary
+verb[VN] (formal) 1[usually passive] to make sb feel disgust or strong dislike Synonym: REPEL I was repulsed by the horrible smell. 2 to fight sb who is attacking you and drive them away Synonym: REPEL to repulse an attack / invasion / offensive 3 to refuse to accept sb's help, attempts to be friendly, etc: Each time I tried to help I was repulsed. + She repulsed his advances.
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